It’s been a while since I last posted anything to my blog. I looked to see when I last posted something, and it was May 2021! Wow, time sure flies. It’s been over a year!
I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been so busy. But that would only be partially true. I started the blog during the Covid lockdown because I had extra time on my hands. I had been thinking of starting a blog, so it seemed like the perfect time. My initial intent was to post to my blog at least twice a month, but I didn’t do that. And while I didn’t post as much as I had wanted to during lockdown, even after the lockdown ended, I really haven’t been TOO busy since then to do it.
I’d like to say it’s because I ran out of ideas. But that would be totally untrue. I get ideas in my head a lot. I’d like to think God sends them my way and I do believe He does because I feel like I was getting a nudge from Him to start the blog in the first place.
My normal routine of writing is to get my thoughts down and then because I tend to be on the side of a perfectionist, I usually tweak and re-tweak (is that even a word? 😉) until I’m ready to post.
I had started working on something to post last summer (2021). For some reason, I probably tweaked it to the point of over doing it…. (Well, to be honest, it was totally past the point of over doing it.) There was nothing left to tweak, but I never posted it. I would go back and reread it. (Many times). Everything looked ok AND it was even a SHORT post!
So, here’s the thing…
It never seemed good enough. The idea I believe God had laid on my heart to write, didn’t feel good enough to me to post. I mean, when you write a blog, you put yourself out there. Maybe someone will like it, maybe they won’t. But if it touches even ONE person, then that’s what the intent of it is, I believe.
Then it hit me! I was listening to the chatter in my head. The chatter from the enemy himself, the one who certainly wouldn’t want anyone to be inspired by what God had laid on my heart. The chatter kept saying, “It’s not good enough!” “No one wants to read this!” “Who do you think you are, anyway, writing a blog of all things?” “This is trash!”
What upsets me the most about the chatter is not the fact that it was coming at me, but the fact that I was listening to it. I was letting it keep me from posting to my blog! So here I am, sharing my vulnerability with you all in hopes that you won’t let the evil one’s chatter stop you from doing what God wants you to do. I’m not looking for praise. I’m not looking for compliments. But I write this in hopes that you will see that you are not alone when you hear that chatter in your head. The chatter most likely means you are on the right track. You are following what God wants you to do. So don’t let the chatter keep you from doing that thing he wants you to do!!
Or perhaps you are hearing the chatter that is saying you are not good enough… not a good enough Mom, Dad, wife, friend, employee, person, etc. DO NOT LISTEN!
See, I believe the enemy will tell you these things to cause you despair and to lose hope, but God doesn’t do that. He will convict you to do better and He will help you to do better. Jesus told the disciples that the Holy Spirit will teach them all things and accompany them through life.
John 14:26 “But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.”
Or maybe you are hearing the chatter that is telling you that you are not good enough to come to God. That you need to somehow get cleaned up before he will love you or accept you. Let me tell you… You will NEVER be good enough. But… In all His grace and mercy, He loves you anyway and wants a relationship with you! Yes, you! With all your brokenness and imperfections. He wants you! He loves you!!!
1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
Soon I will post what I wrote that came with the chatter. I hope you will be blessed by it. Until then, DON’T listen to the chatter!
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